How i am actting the role of the victim? i FEEL?

powerless, overall, tied to rules from vrious sources in life. following those rules doesn't make me happy, a few particular ones obviously. but i feel a responsibility and it all works out in the end...at least the other rules. feeling, too, that i have to follow them, unless i wish certain doom & distaster on the least of things, my kiddos and eternity.........